heroin.

I'm eighteen and I'm using many drugs but my one love is dope. I can't believe I'm dabbling with heroin. I never thought I would touch it... I never even considered doing it until the end of last year. Its only been a few times and yes I've managed to stay away from it for a few weeks but that doesn't mean it still doesn't call my name. Sometimes I even daydream about cutting lines of dope on my dresser and then inhaling it into my nostrils. Mmmm, the thought of it makes me crave heroin so badly but I know I can refrain from using; at least until the next time I can get my hands on it. The sad thing is nobody knows about my problem with drugs. Yeah, they know I smoked pot and what not but heroin? No, they don't know anything about that and I'd like to keep it that way. I'm living a double life and I feel so guilty. I know that what I'm doing is wrong but how at the same time can it feel so right?